That’s cool too
maggie i have warned you
I am upset. very upset. I figured out why but I probably won’t do anything about it because confrontation scares me. I want to say something so badly but I won’t. instead I plan to sit around until I cave in. From the experience I have with my brain and second guessing I predict I won’t cave for a solid month. And then after that month I hopefully will never cave because I will have forgotten by then.
Basically what I’m saying is that I’m scared. Scared to find out that they don’t give a twig about me and the only reason they talked to me was for their own personal gain. I thought we were friends, mature 20 year olds. I guess I thought wrong. It’s cool. I didn’t enjoy having you as a friend at all…guess we don’t have to talk.
something is wrong with me. good thing i have no clue what it is exactly. i’ll let you know when i figure it out myself.
i don’t really know why anything should be wrong either. i have great friends, my honors scholarship has survived another semester, and i have a good job.
but this blah feeling won’t go away and i don’t know what is causing it and i don’t know how to stop it and it is killing me.
i realize i push my feelings away and am basically emotionless so what i don’t understand is why it isn’t working this time.
i wish people weren’t so stupid. i wish guys could be friends with a girl who doesn’t want to date them. sorry for hurting your feelings but whatever get over it.
i think ill just go cry myself to sleep now. if you read this whole thing i apologize